Have you ever been in trouble at home and thought to yourself, "I'll run away… and then they'll be sorry!"
I remember thinking that when I was little. One time I even got on a bus to another town! Fortunately someone on the bus knew me and put me on the next bus back home. He also rang my parents who were waiting for me at the bus station. I never tried to run away again. Yes, they were sorry, and so was I…and scared… and lonely… and glad that my parents loved me and wanted to take care of me.
My story had a happy ending, but sometimes kids who run away from home have a very frightening and lonely time, until they find the right sort of help.
Some kids may stay at friends' houses.
Some kids may stay with someone else in the family for a while.
Some kids go home again and work things out with their parents.
Some kids get help from the Government or an organisation that helps street kids.
Some kids live on the streets.
Some kids end up being badly treated and badly hurt.
There are many reasons why kids run away from home, but they all have something to do with one or more of these:
problems at home, eg. feeling unsafe, fighting between parents, fighting with siblings, feeling unwanted, divorce, parent's new partner, a new baby, money worries, too many rules, not enough rules.
problems at school, eg. bullying, teasing, work being too hard or too easy, problems with a teacher, homework, or having no friends.
problems with friends, eg. teasing, spreading rumours, people telling your secrets, peer group pressure.
problems with the law, eg. drinking, drug use, stealing, graffiti, vandalism, breaking-in, assault.
problems with boyfriends/girlfriends, eg. breaking up, not wanting to take no for an answer, having an argument, being dumped.
"Most kids who run away are back within two days. Those two days can be like a nightmare for the kids and their families.
Nothing is so awful that you can't get through it with some help. There are people who can help you whatever trouble you are in. Running away may get you away from one problem for a while but it doesn't solve the problem. - Running away can give you a lot more problems and put you into danger. - Not every kid comes back in two days, and some never come back at all."
"My sister ran away when she was 16. My mum and dad were really upset. After a week she told us where she was, and she came back again a year later when she had fallen out with her boyfriend". - Anon
"My friend's brother ran away and they still don't know where he is. The Police have looked for him. They hope that he will ring the police or a Helpline somewhere so that they will get a message saying he's okay". - James
"My friend tried to run away lots of times because she doesn't like living with mum and her boyfriend. She wants to live with her dad but his new wife doesn't want her and her mum won't let her. She's going to move in with her auntie in 2 years when she's 16". - Sam
I am trying my very best to avoid all the dramas and just live a happy pretentious life. But every time I get hit by PMS -either the PRE or the POST, all the efforts of putting myself up will just be thrown away.
Lately, I know I am really trying to put an effort on showing my strong side with everything -school, time management, friends and even to my family. These past few weeks, after New Year's, has pretty much been an obstacle. But negativity is not all there is for me. I've had several laughs naman.
As much as possible, I try hard not to dwell on my past life (as advised by someone) so as not to affect my present. Siguro kaya hindi ako makapag-move on ay dahil nadin sa pagiging attached ko sa past ko. But how and when? Is not thinking about everything constantly an indication that I have moved on? For instance, not thinking about my Pokerbaby often, (my 3 mos old puppy who died after a week of fighting bec. of worms) indicates that I'm okay now and that I'm healed by the pains? If so then I guess I am really okay now. But what I can't understand now is why does it ALWAYS feel like there is a constant emotion of kakulangan in me? Which is something I am really really avoiding kasi I was taught to be contented of what I have.
So ano ang problema ko? Hindi ko din po ma-point out exactly. Magulo eh. It's like my chest's gonna explode na anytime soon.
Wait lang..
I've been told a lot of "hurt-words" by the people I care most about and they can't blame me for taking some seriously because I believe that they know better and that those "hurt-words" are of good intentional purposes. Gathering some of them up like: possessive, self-centered, and tanga (stupid). Parang may sense na siguro nga ganun ako. Kaya ba ako palaging iniiwan?
Ayoko dumating sa point na super manhid na ako with everything. That I would care less with emotions. Maybe I need some time off. Last year was just too much to handle and now that I am starting (on my second month) another good year (I wish) I promise to handle things better. If no one else could help me, I wish I could help myself. Ako nalang ang iiwas, ako nalang ang gagawa ng paraan.
PS I miss my old me. I miss my bestfriend, Ari (my first bestfriend who died bec. of cancer after a year of our BEST friendship) I miss Pamee (my childhood friend, who is like a sister to me. She now resides in Canada) Boo.. I wish I could write everyone here. But nonetheless, if you get across this entry.. THANK YOU FOR BRINGING OUT THE BEST IN ME :)
//EDIT: I DON'T UNDERSTAND WHAT IS HAPPENING ANYMORE. I CAN'T UNDERSTAND WHY I KEEP FEELING THIS WAY. THIS HAS TO STOP. PLEASE :'(
Girls, (okay, pwede din naman sa boys, if ever you felt this before or even at present)
na-feel niyo na ba like everythings seemed so down kahit na just a few minutes ago super okay naman lahat? Like you just have this certain feeling of paranoia that all forces of negativity is within you. Hay, that's how I feel now I and I SUPER WANT THIS TO END NOW!!!:'(
Sorry if I've been re-blogging articles for my recent posts but I'm not really in the mood to tell a lot but wants to share these articles because it somewhat tells what's going through my mind at the moment. After I get back to my blogging self I promise to be madaldal again :)
What's the most powerful step you can take to dramatically improve your health?
My answer is this:
Learn how to effectively manage emotional stress
All of my clinical and personal experiences over the years have me convinced that no other factor has more influence over your health.
Not diet, not exercise, not even how much you sleep.
Why is emotional stress is one of the most significant causes of all chronic health challenges?
Because your body cannot defend itself against the damage that emotional stress quietly creates over time. Your body pays a heavy physiological price for every moment that you feel anxious, tense, frustrated, and angry.
I'm not suggesting that you should strive to never feel these emotions. Anxiety, tension, frustration, and anger all serve important purposes when they first arise. The danger is in experiencing these emotions on a chronic basis.
Emotional stress sets off a series of reactions in your body that involve your sympathetic nervous system, the portion of your nervous system that would increase your chance of surviving if you were to run into a mountain lion during a hike. In such a situation, your sympathetic nervous system would:
Speed up and intensify your heart and breathing rates, so that you could have more oxygen and nutrients available to your muscles to run or fight.
Divert the bulk of your blood supply to your large muscles groups to run or fight.
Slow or even shut down your digestive system so as to not waste blood, nutrients, and oxygen that could be used to run or fight.
Stimulate the release of extra glucose into your blood to give you a burst of energy, just as a cheetah's spleen gushes extra blood into its circulation when it needs a burst of acceleration.
Cause your adrenal glands to release epinephrine and norepinephrine into your system to increase cardiac output and increase blood sugar.
Stimulate the release of cortisol from your adrenal glands to increase blood sugar and energy.
Increase the diameter of your pupils to allow for more light to enter your eyes and more acute vision for fighting and running quickly on any type of terrain.
Clearly, it is to your advantage to have a healthy sympathetic nervous system, one that is capable of providing all of the functions listed above during physical emergencies.
What you don't want is for your body to experience all of the above on a continuous, low-grade level because of emotional stress.
And this is exactly what many of us are suffering from in today's hectic world.
Emotional stress is immensely harmful to your health because your body reacts to it in the same way that it would react if you came upon a wild mountain lion. Not always to the same degree, of course, but there's no question that your sympathetic nervous system increases its output whenever you feel anxious, tense, frustrated, or angry. In other words, whenever you feel stressed.
There's really no need to provide a list of health conditions that are partly caused by emotional stress, because every health condition is partly caused by emotional stress. Emotional stress always equals increased output by the sympathetic nervous system, which always equals accelerated aging and breakdown of your tissues.
So what can you do to effectively manage emotional stressors in your life and prevent them from creating health problems?
1. Breathe deeply and regularly
Doing so can actually decrease the tone of your sympathetic nervous system and increase the tone of your parasympathetic nervous system, which is the portion of your nervous system that promotes relaxation and good digestion.
2. Spend some quiet time every day in prayer, meditation, or a purposeful relaxation session
All three have been scientifically proven to facilitate a relaxation response in your body that can decrease blood pressure, decrease pulse rate, and improve blood circulation. Meditation and relaxation sessions can be greatly enhanced by listening to any number of audio CDs that are designed to facilitate optimal relaxation and mental clarity. The one that I use on a regular basis and highly recommend is called EarthRain.
3. Practice visualization
Almost all great athletes practice some form of visualization. As author Wayne Dyer says, "you'll see it when you believe it." Spend some time each day visualizing yourself going about your day in a balanced and emotionally poised manner. You can include visualization in your prayer/meditation/relaxation session.
4. Make sure that you are getting the nutrients that you need for a healthy nervous system
Your nutritional status can make all the difference between being able to handle a certain amount of stress without breaking down vs. quickly suffering health problems when faced with stress.
While it's important to your overall health that you eat a well balanced and nutrient-dense diet, for emotional health specifically, it is important to ensure adequate intake of B vitamins, Vitamin D, and two long chain omega-3 fatty acids, DHA and EPA.
5. Be honest about your feelings
There's a reason why know thyself is a wise proverb/saying in virtually every culture of our world. Striving to know yourself and what you are truly feeling on a daily basis is absolutely essential to preventing unpleasant but genuine emotions from becoming chronic states. Anger, frustration, and anxiousness can all help to fuel personal growth and character development if you are honest with yourself and seek to discover their root causes.
One of the best methods I can recommend to increase your awareness of what you are truly feeling is journal writing. The rules are simple: no censorship, no possibility of another set of eyes being able to read your thoughts, just pure flow of thoughts from your mind and heart onto a piece of paper or your computer screen. Regular journal writing in this manner can be extremely beneficial to your emotional health.
6. Move your body
It's a well established fact that regular exercise is one of the best habits you can adopt that will help you avoid depression and stay emotionally balanced. It doesn't matter what kind of exercise you do. What's important is to be active and use your joints and muscles on a regular basis.
Don't make the mistake that many health conscious people make and fret over the percentages of carbs, protein, fat, raw food, and cooked food in your diet while neglecting the emotional stressors in your life.
Yes, eating fresh, nutrient-dense foods is good for your health. But eating fresh, nutrient-dense foods while feeling emotionally balanced and at peace is even better.
In my book, I emphasize the importance of learning how to stay centered in a stressful, highly emotionally charged world.
Since emotions such as fear, anger, and frustration are energies, you can potentially “catch” them from people without realizing it.
If you tend to be an emotional sponge, it’s vital to know how to avoid taking on an individual’s negative emotions or the free-floating kind in crowds.
Another twist is that chronic anxiety, depression, or stress can turn you into an emotional sponge by wearing down your defenses. Suddenly, you become hyper-attuned to others, especially those with similar pain.
That’s how empathy works; we zero in on hot-button issues that are unresolved in ourselves. From an energetic standpoint, negative emotions can originate from several sources. What you’re feeling may be your own; it may be someone else’s; or it may be a combination.
I’ll explain how to tell the difference and strategically bolster positive emotions so you don’t shoulder negativity that doesn’t belong to you.
This wasn’t something I always knew how to do. Growing up, my girlfriends couldn’t wait to hit the shopping malls and go to parties, the bigger the better–but I didn’t share their excitement.
I always felt overwhelmed, exhausted around large groups of people, though I was clueless why. “What’s the matter with you?” friends would say, shooting me the weirdest looks. All I knew was that crowded places and I just didn’t mix.
I’d go there feeling just fine but leave nervous, depressed, or with some horrible new ache or pain. Unsuspectingly, I was a gigantic sponge, absorbing the emotions of people around me.
With my patients, I’ve also seen how absorbing other people’s emotions can trigger panic attacks, depression, food, sex and drug binges, and a plethora of physical symptoms that defy traditional medical diagnosis.
The Centers for Disease Control and Prevention report that more than two million Americans suffer from chronic fatigue. It’s likely that many of them are emotional sponges.
You don’t have to reinvent the wheel each time you’re on emotional overload.
With strategies to cope, you can have quicker retorts to stressful situations, feel safer, and your sensitivities can blossom.
MANILA, Philippines—The Philippine Atmospheric, Geophysical and Astronomical Services Administration (PAGASA) is anticipating an early onset of "summer" in the country and a dry season that will be hotter than usual.
PAGASA Deputy Administrator for Operations and Services Nathaniel Cruz said summer, or more accurately the dry season for the Philippines, might start as early as the middle of February. He warned of the possibility of temperatures rising and staying at 36 degrees Celsius over several days, which would be dangerous.
He explained that breaks in the northeast monsoon have been causing the mercury to rise even in January, the supposed peak of the country’s cold season. Once a break in the northeast monsoon occurs, the warm “easterlies” or easterly winds, come into the country.
The breaks in the northeast monsoon also indicate the possibility of an early termination of the cold season and an early start of the dry months.
“If the northeast monsoon is terminated, the easterlies will come in, signaling the start of the dry season, or summer for some of us,” Cruz told the Philippine Daily Inquirer.
The northeast monsoon is the cold air from the northern hemisphere coming into the country starting November and ending usually at the end of February or the beginning of March.
The “easterlies” or easternly waves are the warm air from the Pacific Ocean, particularly the equatorial sections, that travel west to the country.
Another reason for the early arrival of summer is the El Niño phenomenon, or the unusual warming of sea surface temperatures that cause droughts, which could peak in February.
Besides the early onset of the dry months, Cruz also said that the traditional warm months would be warmer than usual with temperatures peaking in the vicinity of 38 degrees Celsius.
“We could have days when temperatures would peak at 38. But if you have 36 degrees sustained over a period of several days, that’s dangerous,” Cruz said. He added that people could suffer heat stroke and heat exhaustion due to the warm weather.
For January, PAGASA predicts “near normal to slightly warmer surface air temperatures” in Luzon. Warmer than normal temperatures are also expected in most areas in the Visayas and Mindanao.
Cruz said current temperatures could range from a minimum of 21 to 22 degrees Celsius to a maximum of 31 to 32 degrees Celsius.
With this, I will post some low-cost yet fun activities to do during summer. Stay tuned :)
Have you ever found yourself in a relationship where the frustration level and the number of times you butt heads with each other seems to increase by the second? You say blue, she says red, and the fights just seem to be going in circles.
If the answer is yes, then you may be at what I call "the breakup point." Here are five signs that your relationship may be past the point of fixing. Whether you are living together, married, or just dating, these breakup signs are usually loud and clear.
1. You stop relationship-building behaviors.In the honeymoon stage of a relationship, which we all know is the first 90 days of pure bliss, you are learning about each other and making efforts to create romantic moods and nice evenings. When you're in that stage, you are really working at building your relationship. Then, at some point, you start to butt heads with each other. Critical relationship elements deteriorate. Maybe you stop kissing each other goodbye or stop texting each other during the day. Instead of adding things to the relationship, you start to resent each other like two five-year-olds who stop sharing their crayons. This is a breakup point.
2. You don't understand each other anymore. The fighting escalates to a place where you no longer feel like you're understood by your partner. Physical intimacy stops, communication stops, and you are living like roommates. You're at the point in the relationship where you are trying to understand each other, but you get so frustrated because you feel like you just don't understand each other anymore. This is a breakup point.
3. You start punishing each other. When you get to the point of no longer understanding each other, what happens is that you end up just kind of coexisting in the new dynamic. Resentment builds and you get in your head too much. You are no longer about feelings, and you start punishing each other. "Well, he hasn't done this for me, so I'm not going to do this for him" are the kind of thoughts that take root. The longer you stay in that dynamic and the further away you get from the dynamic you had during the early part of the relationship, the less likely it is that you'll ever get it back (and, after a point, you won't). You have hit the breakup point.
4. You fight less. When you get to the breakup point, you actually fight less with your partner. You fight less because in your mind and heart you start detaching yourself from the other person, and you don't care as much anymore. You have already made a determination that they don't understand you, that they will never understand you, and that the relationship just won't work out. The minute you get into a fight, you just walk away from it. That is a sure sign that you are at the breakup point.
5. You've taken the time to think it through.When you think you might have hit that breakup point, you must tell the person that you're disconnecting from them. You need to be honest and raw. If you don't think the relationship is going to work, or you know you've already disconnected based on how things have been going, then you might want to consider walking away for a week. When you're in the thick of things, they never seem to be able to work out.
So take a break. Spend a week without your partner. Take the week to ask yourself some questions. Go visit some friends or family. Really think about what life would be like without that person. How would you feel? Then, go back and either take a stand for the relationship or break up.
Whichever decision you make, you need to be honest with yourself. Life is too short! There are a lot of wonderful, amazing people out there ready to meet you.
Hello. As a blogger, I want my posts to be beneficial and of interests to my readers. I have another blog that primarily caters to my educational interests. Now as to my personal blog, what would you suggest I put here aside from my daily weirdness? Thank you and continue visiting my site everyday! HAHAHA
CDE Week or Child Development and Education's Week is definitely one of the much awaited activities every year in our course. For this school year a lot of things happened within that 5-6 day event.
Day 1: Storytelling with daycare students. Kollene, Erika and I did "The Alphabet Tree" by Leo Lionni. Ja and Paula helped us with the activities. Kelli, Pia and Steph did "Paula Oink Oink" by Rene Villanueva. Mommy Jo and Chico helped with the activities. After the storytelling we had a SPED Seminar. (insert: Mrs. Saplala's CONSUUUUUUUUUUUULTATION)
Day 2: First Aid Seminar conducted by Phil. Red Cross. We were taught how to attend to mild to severe injuries. They also demonstrated the proper way of using CPR. For lunch, we had Slice 'N Dice. It was one of the few crazy lunch I had with my WONDERFRIENDS ♥ Then by 1:30 we had the Media Seminar and found out how Dora The Explorer would look like as a teenager. HAHAHA! Had classes for our CD-116 Curriculum Development after.
Day 3: PLAY DAY! Watched Oliver with some of my friends. Kuddos to Chico, Bea P. all the cast and staff of CDEC Play, for a JOB WELL DONE!
Saturday: Lesson Demo finals for Kollene, Bea, Mommy Jo, Karen and Janine! Yeeeey :D
I want to seeDear John this week. My wonderfriends are planning to see the film tomorrow but I can't so I asked them to reschedule it on Friday since it'll be a school holiday because of Teacher's day!
Well this post sort of tells how I love Nicholas Sparks' works. And oh dear, how my movie-maniac-alter-ego is starting to get inside me again! Okay, I'm just keeping my fingers crossed for the whole week :|
This prayer is from the UP Parish of the Holy Sacrifice. We hear mass there most of the time and this prayer made an impact to my life. This prayer is recited every after communion. I pray a few lines from this prayer (since I haven't memorized everything YET) and it never fails to heal my pains.
Lord of the Holy Sacrifice, your saving oblation on the cross has given me new life. May I always recall your holy sacrifice on the cross and do it in remembrance of you. When tempted by selfishness, inspire me to be taken as an unworthy sacrifice. When burdened by envy, let me become an instrument of blessing for others. When afflicted by anger and pride, grant me the humility to be broken and given for others. When unsettled by anguish and troubled by worries, give me encouragement.
May your Spirit move my heart to see in your outstretched arms your loving embrace of everyone that I, too, may welcome others with the same love in an open hand.Teach my mind and direct my will to humbly endure the pain of undeserved suffering even when my intent was good and done what is right.May I understand that it is in the holy sacrifice of your wounds that my brokenness is healed. May I see in your sacrifice on the cross not only death and defeat but victory and life.
Loving Father, may the holy sacrifice of your Son cleanse my soul, strengthen my heart, pardon my past and restore me in your peace.May I always adore you by uniting myself in His holy sacrifice, the sacrament of your divine love. May I learn to sacrifice my own comfort, plans and dreams if it is not for your glory and the good of others.
With Mary, the mother of Jesus, who joined her heart with the sacrifice of her Son, may I become a holy sacrifice of love and service for others. Gathered around the altar of love, may all be united in listening to your word and sharing the one bread and cup and become one people, offering one holy sacrifice. Amen.
Wasting time is an extremely important skill in this modern, fast-paced society. This skill is especially important if you are a government employee, as you can not only waste your own time, you can waste the time of many other people.
The Institute of Temporal Displacement has spent years in an exhaustive, and time-consuming study of the best methodologies for achieving the minimum benefit from the consumption of the maximum amount of time. Herewith are the highlights of that study:
SLEEPING: Sleeping is one of the most effective ways to consume time with little benefit. We are not talking about regular sleeping at night, which is beneficial. We are talking about sleeping on the job, sleeping through concerts and other performances, and especially sleeping while driving to and from work.
DOODLING: Taking notes is productive. Doodling is not. Thus, when you are supposed to be taking notes, such as while in class, draw little circles all over the pages, or circles and squares, or just squares. When you are done, count the number of circles or squares you have created. You will remember absolutely nothing about what was being said.
DAY DREAMING: Day dreaming is a lost art. When it is not appropriate to be sleeping (such as while operating heavy equipment or piloting aircraft) the next best thing is the day dream. Think about your favorite beach. Hear the sound of the waves breaking on the beach. A beautiful young (pick your sex) walks by....
GET A NEW DRIVERS LICENSE: The most accomplished time wasters work in state offices that issue drivers licenses or hand out license plates and vehicle registrations. If you succeed in becoming an accomplished time waster, you might actually qualify for a job in one of these departments (though we're told these positions are hereditary). Anyway, at least a half day can be wasted by trying to get a driver's license. Even if it doesn't take this long, your boss will not question that it did, so you can use your free time to get an ice cream cone and wander through the park.
WANDER THROUGH A PARK: Wandering through a public park is an excellent way to make hours vanish unproductively. However, do not feed the ducks or do this at night.
(8) WATCH THE WEATHER CHANNEL: After the first 15 minutes, there is nothing of value, therefore this is an excellent way to waste time. Any of the other 50 or 60 channels on your cable system will also do.
READ JUNK MAIL: You will be surprised how much time you can actually spend reading your junk mail, instead of instantly throwing it out the second you realize it is junk mail.
I never believed love at first sight exists. How could you possibly fall for someone without personally knowing that person? But everything changed when I met Ken.
It was June 15, 2007 when my mom gave birth to our one and only brother, Joakim. I was with my mom during the 3 day stay inn the hospital. My sister called me the first night and told me that somebody moved next door already. I was able to formally meet him on the 18th of June. His mom introduced me, my sister and my dad to him. I thought he was just about my age, 18 to 20, I'm guessing only to find out he was about 23 already and I was 17 that time.
We exchanged text messages night after and became good friends from then on. Week after, we found ourselves liking each other, already! I never knew what would happen because things happened pretty fast. He was a complete stranger before everything came to existence.
A month after, everything got serious between us. I fell harder than I thought I would. He was simply amazing.He has his ways of making me feel secured, happy and loved. He was someone I never expected to come. Everything seemed perfect except for one thing..
His mom didn't approve of me being more than a friend to him. It seemed to me based from what he told me that his mom wanted an "IDEAL GIRL" for him. In other words, it maybe someone who is not me. We still fought for what we feel and eventually stayed together through all the obstacles that came our way.
Issues, arguments and even break ups are all part of the story. We had to face a serious dark chapter in our story and had to break up, we were on our 3rd month then. He had his reasons, I listened to them. I gave way.
It was only after a month when I saw him again. We talked and said our I miss you's. We stayed sweet but still under no obligations to each other. As days went by, our relationship grew deeper again. Love was there, it was always there. We did Christmas shopping together, had our fishball afternoon and had his DOTA time while I play Counter Strike Versus the computer. He spent a few hours before Christmas with my family. He met my aunties, uncles, nieces, nephews and my grandmother from my father's side. (The Marcos side. HAHA) That was the happiest Christmas I had, so far.
It was our 6th month when he had to leave for London. I stayed optimistic about it. We stayed optimistic about us. We spent his last week spending time, from the most simplest deed (buying ice cream and eating while he walks me home) to going to malls and watching random movies after another. January 17 came and I went home from school as early as I could. He was dressed up already looking like his already good to go. I never shed a tear in front of him. I wanted him to remember me being at my happiest before he leaves.
We ate our favorite chocolate moose. I did a lot of talking, he was just watching me, seemed to enjoy what he was doing. I was secretly in pain. After that day, who would walk me home from dos? Who would buy me cake when I feel ill? Who would text me in random days just to tell me how much he loves? It will all be different after that day. No more tight hugs, stolen kisses and staring games.
I stayed positive for the first few months of being alone. I send him emails almost everyday. I update him with almost everything. I miss him everyday.
Eventually, I got used to the cycle. The feeling seemed at a normal rate for me. I got used to it already. Months passed our relationship grew stronger, just as what we have promised each other before he left. I even got his mom's approval. An unfortunate event happened to his family and his mom had to fly back to Philippines. She asked Ken to tell me that she wanted to meet me when she gets here. I met his relatives. They were all funny and nice to me. I missed him more.
Not all stories end with "and they lived happily ever after". Our story never did. We said our goodbyes during our 21st month. I have had the sweetest 21 months with him. The longest story I've had, so far.
To the person behind my once upon a time: You've made me the happiest during the time when I had you. Made life worry-free and secured me from all negativity. Thank you. Thank you for the good and painful memories. Thank you cus without you, I wouldn't be as strong as I am today. You will forever be in my heart and will still have a safe happy place in there. I am glad to have not only met you but I also had you.
I've been making bad decisions since I don't know when. But I could proudly say I don't regret any of them.
Everything happens for a reason and for everything you lose, you have gained something else, and for everything you gain, you lose something else. I lost a lot already but gained more than I thought I have lost. I lost my baby dog but got new gadgets to take care of. Lost a lover, a true friend and my very true love but met new super cool friends to cheer me up.
Life is simply a game. You have to play it in order to win some, if you lose, theres always "try again next time". I am never a player. I never played. Well.. its more of the i'm-afraid-of-losing drama. But later did I realized, without losing, you'll never be able to get up and taste the sweet victory. Its not always about winning, its more of the experience and being in the game.
When I thought I had nothing, I simply just have to pay close attention to the smallest details and see that life has a looooot to offer.
It doesn't mean that you lost something important to you means you'll never get to have another chapter in your life. Our life is a big blank magic book, it never runs out of pages to write on.
I may have had decisions that are not necessary, I know it has its reasons. We simply just have to
risk it. Take Chances. Face the consequences. Be happy. Never Regret. Forgive and Forget.
Disregard my older posts. I think its one of those worst PMS attacks. Anyway.. Sembreak has officially started a week 2 days ago, I just hasn't found time to blog it because of my unpredictable mood swings.
Before sembreak even started I made a un-official list of my to-dos for the whole 4 weeks off. Here are some of what I'll (try to) do:
1. FAILED. Process my Non-Pro driver's license! -Yep, I am still using the Student's permit. This should be a good time to finally process everything I need for my non-pro!
2. Sort my 1st Semester papers. -Goodbye tons of (not so helpful) handouts! HAHAHA. Hello, Bote-Dyaryo man! HAHAHA
3. Change my Blog's layout -Make it more.. ME!
4. FAILED. Fix and ORGANIZE (which I doubt I'd be able to do) my iTunes playlists -Self-explenatory LOL
5. COOK -Something I really need to start doing. Man, how can I start living alone? HAHAHA
6. FAILED. Play Poker -Yes! I need to start playing again. I think I lost my skills already. It has been like 4 or 5 months since I last played. HAHAHA
7. FAILED!!! Nabawasan pa lalo!!! Gain 10lbs! -Or atleast gain something HAHAHAHA!
AND these are the things I have been very busy with for the past 4 days trying to make my sembreak worthwhile..
1. Wii -YES! DAD BOUGHT Wii for us! Wiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii. HAHAHA. I'm seriously trying to make a career with GuitarHero and I'm scheduling a once a week Tennis workout! Yeeahmenn! Sidenote: I just won a basketball game against my Dad. Boyish much? HAHAHA
2. Online Accounts (including my Blog) -Facebook is definitely eating my TIME! LOL But I made a schedule, I only go online after dinner, till 2AM. Nonsense noh? HAHAHAHA
3. PLANTS VS ZOMBIES -This game is the most chaotic (in a nice way, pwede ba yun? HAHA) game ever! I spent like 3 hours with the free trial version and man, cried after it expired. Now I'm trying to download a Full version of it. (Wish me luck that this one's it!) -So not the one :(
4. Eating and Sleeping -and I'm really doing good at it! HAHAHA. Imagine me waking up past lunch time and eating 5 meals a day. Tamad ko, Man!
So wish me luck and have a good mid-October to you!
I am an avid Barbie fan but never did this 'Break up" thing between my ideal couple came in my mind. I didn't even know how I landed into this site. But oh well, every details sounds interesting so go take a time off reading it :)
Got this from: Businessweek.com FEBRUARY 17, 2004 Behind the Barbie-Ken Breakup Did America's favorite doll dump her beau for a surfer dude? Is her longtime steady gay? BW Online's Barbie historian sorts it all out
Barbie has been cast in many roles over the years: ice skater, astronaut, movie star, doctor, Presidential candidate (see BW Online, 5/04/00, "President 2000 Barbie: The White House or Bust"). But disloyal, man-eating, round-heeled hussy? Never. As an unabashed Barbie fan of many years standing, let me address these issues one by one:
Being single better suits the Cali Girl doll. Nonsense. Having a significant other has never inhibited Barbie before. In fact, having a constant steady seemed to suit Barbie just fine. No one ever made snide comments about her being single or an old maid, but she was still free to pursue her various careers. In particular, Malibu Barbie, an earlier incarnation of a beach-loving babe, had no problem being attached to Malibu Ken. Truly, they were a golden couple.
Barbie has left Ken for Blaine. A little harder to dismiss. Who might not be tempted to look elsewhere for a little change after 43 years? And Blaine, by all accounts, is handsome, fun-loving, and looks a little looser than Ken –- like maybe he actually bends at the knees. There is something a little surprising about Barbie taking up with, well, someone who's not her all-American equal. But the strapping surfer from Oz is just exotic enough to be appealing, while not too much so as to be disconcerting.
Ken is gay. (I don't think he is! HAHAHAHA) And Barbie oblivious? It's possible that more was behind those closet doors in Barbie's Dream House than her ever-expanding wardrobe. It wouldn't be the first time a beautiful woman has fallen for a gay man (witness Elizabeth Taylor's love for Montgomery Clift). Certainly, the highly groomed –- one might even say plastic-looking -- Ken had a metrosexual quality to him. And that was more than 40 years before the term had even been coined.
Society being what it was in 1961, coming out would have spelled career disaster for Ken. Plus, making Ken gay now imbues everyone with a certain hipness –- him, Barbie, Mattel –- and opens up all sorts of possibilities for new dolls and accessories. After all, it would hardly be fair to deny Ken companionship after all these years of being a couple.
There is, of course, another theory: That all this is just a marketing ploy –- a publicist's dream –- to boost interest in the Cali Girl and Blaine dolls. After all, Demi Moore –- a woman of just about the same age as Barbie –- has taken up with a boy toy, Ashton Kutcher, and it has done wonders to keep her front and center in the gossip columns. The on-again, off-again romance between Jennifer Lopez and Ben Affleck had them in the headlines for months.
Still, such PR tricks can backfire. True, Demi has gotten tons of publicity with her new romance, but it hasn't done much for her career. And one could argue whether Bennifer has benefited from their pairing -- on-screen or off. One word here: Gigli.
Can we hope for a happier ending for Barbie and Ken? That she'll see Blaine as just a harmless fling? That Ken will realize his obsession with his appearance and clothes just makes him the Fab Five's perfect straight man? The truth is, it doesn't really matter. Barbie will be just fine, regardless of whether she ends up with Ken, Blaine, someone else –- or no one at all.
DIRTY LITTLE SECRET. Ken was always extraneous –- for both Barbie and the girls whose imaginations she helped fire over the past half century (see BW Online, 4/30/02, "To Ruth Handler, a 21-Barbie Salute"). Sure, Mattel sold plenty of Bridal Barbies and elaborate wedding gowns -– and Ken was always the presumed groom. But blushing bride was just one of the many roles Barbie played. Mattel wisely gave her girlfriends to pal around with, careers to pursue, and fabulous clothes and accessories that made everything – and everyone -- else irrelevant.
Ken, to a large extent, was just another accessory. Just like her pink convertible or her beach house. Fun to have, but not absolutely necessary. Beside, here's the dirty little secret about Ken. He was never all that hot, and Barbie knew it. But that GI Joe –- now, he was a doll.
Random thoughts kept passing through my mind now. School's starting in 2 days(not really a big deal for me since we'll only be having consultation due to Final's suspension) and I thought to myself: ang biliiiiiiiiis! I just blogged about how bored I am for being stuck at home then eto na, school weeknanaman.
Fine, I have to be honest, I still can't find my Blogger thoughts and now I stuttering with what I'll write so please, forgive me for senseless thoughts.
I am super happy. What Philippines had is one good result of Prayer Power. Typhoon Pepeng left the country already leaving a minimal damage compared to Ondoy. Thank God for that and Thank you to everyone who prayed.
Speaking of Typhoon.. Remember when I got stranded in Marikina during the peak of Typhoon Ondoy? My roomates taught me how to play Pusoy-Dos, YES! I DON'T KNOW ANYTHING ABOUT THAT! lol 8 days after learning the game biglang pumasok sa isip ko and jeeez, I totally forgot everything about it. (Sayang effort ni Mai and Khalil for teaching me. Sorry, Guys)So to make up for the guilt feeling, I googled "Pusoy-Dos" and got thissite and at the moment I'm still trying to sink everything into my wasted mind HAHAHA
I also remembered Mai's question as to why the game was called Pusoy-Dos and I also got the answer from the site.
Big Two, Big Deuce or Deuces are the names commonly used in the English speaking world (mainly USA and Australia).
Da Lao Er is Mandarin Chinese and literally means "big old two", but also has a vulgar meaning, in that Lao Er (old two) is slang for penis.
Choh Dai Di or simply Dai Di - surprisingly using a Western letter D for the last syllable. I am not certain from what Chinese dialect this term originates. In Cantonese, "di2" is a slang term for the two in card games: the first way of writing it seems to have a literal meaning connected with the earth, but in fact, like "D", it is just a phonetic approximation to the sound. There is general agreement that the whole phrase refers to the fact that in this game the two is the highest rather than the lowest card, and that "Big Two" is an accurate translation of the sense. One correspondent told me it is Hokkien (Fujian) meaning 'play the biggest smallest'; another says it is not Hokkien, but that 'Dai D' is Hong Kong (Cantonese) slang for 'the little guy', and the whole name means 'step on the little guy'.
Bu Bu Gao Sheng ("step by step rise higher") is another name used for this game in Taiwan.
Pusoy Dos is the usual name used in the Philippines, with the stress on the second syllable of Pusoy. Ruben Canlas Jr. tells me that this translates into English as "Poker Two" - "Pusoy" being the Filipino name for Poker.
Mathijs Claasen reports that in the Netherlands it is called Sjalaliën.
So, is it really just like Poker? Then why am I having a hard time understanding it?! Hahaha
Why did I even remember these stuffs? I DON'T KNOW! Hahaha
A week without school is.. BORING. Due to Typhoon Ondoy and Pepeng, classes were suspended for the whole week. Finals were also suspended, which up until today I really can't figure out if that cancellation of finals would make me happy or not. Anyway, My sister and I volunteered ourselves to help re-pack goods for the victims. Yesterday, Friday, Ateneo and all other volunteer sites stopped the operation in preparation for Typhoon Pepeng which is at the moment "destroying" our country. Since yesterday, I was just at my most BUM behavior. After I eat , I'll sleep then I'll sit in front of my laptop and eat again then sleep and the same thing goes as of today.
Now, Now.. What do we have now? Nothing. I wish I could write something productive but my "blogger thoughts" seemed to have been washed out by the Typhoons. So, Yay for me. My head hurts, so does my eyes.
I couldn't say more but please Pray for our Country as we continue to experience heavy rains. Our country has not fully recovered from Typhoon Ondoy yet another Super Typhoon Pepeng entered our area of responsibility 6 days after. So again, please offer prayers for Philippines. Thank you.
I've been trying to convince myself that I have moved on. And think I'm doing a good job.
Yes, at times, couples around make me feel all jealous and envy but no matter how hard I feel bad, nothing will happen.
I thought to myself that I will never be as happy as I was before.. Not until I met this friend.
I actually couldn't understand why I felt so uneasy when I saw him. My heart started to pound fast..faster and faster. Tried to divert my inner emotions by making lots of kwentos.
I was looking at him closely. He looked back, I felt the warm feeling when we get kilig. But as I looked at him more I could see a different face coming out. A face that I've been waiting and wanting to see. I hugged him instead and shed a couple of tears.
I got to know him more from making kwentos. But not enough for me to think this way. To think that I might have found a reason to be happy again.
Morning (next day) came and he was the first person I saw when I opened my eyes. My heart started to pound again. I looked at him and asked myself.. ''what is this? Why do I feel this way?' I stop and prayed. I asked for guidance and told myself.. 'No emotional attachment, please. This is nothing personal. You just met him and yes he made you smile and that's it. You don't expect him to make you smile forever!''
So there i was taking to myself. I went home that afternoon still with a confused heart.
Days passed and I kept thinking 'bout him at random times. 'Am I missing him?' I hope not. I'm afraid. I'm afraid that I might fall for the wrong person again.
I had a chance to visit him again. He didn't know I was coming. When he saw me the first thing he told me was 'You came back!' Yes, I am back. And I'm here to figure out and trace back the bits and pieces of my confusion.
I don't if I should wish that you know how I feel or wish that you won't figure out at all that you are giving me reasons to smile when all else fail.
I am 2 weeks away from my semBREAK and I feel that I am lucky enough to take a time off to post and update my blog. I've been juggling a lot of works and responsibilities.
I've been very busy with our school's alumni homecoming. I am part of the core group. We've been facing a lot of issues and I am personally getting annoyed with the small things that should be considered as issues na! Here's what I want to tell you:
I've been trying to be patient with you. I tried to understand all your issues but this has to stop na. I am really getting annoyed with all your "reklamos". I never made sumbat all my efforts and sacrifices but you are pushing me to do it. Be a man and face me. What the hell is your issue ba? If you're saying na you are doing A LOT.. Nasaan yun?! My only goal is to help and do my job. One more and I'll QUIT. You are a big pain in my big ass! Face me, wag yung kung kani-kanino ka nagsusumbong. Ang if you'll go make sumbong, please make sure that you're telling them the truth na kaya mong panindigan. You are so funny. Atleast you're making me happy.. -NOT!
I am happy so I won't waste my time na with you and your %#$^#. Hahaha. I can't say anything na.. Hahaha. I am at a lost for words. Basta what I kept asking myself since yesterday was "why are people from my YESTERDAY kept making paramdam?" Hahahaha.
Why am I talking like this? Like I am so maarte. Hahaha. Goodbye Sembreak, Sembreak where art thou?
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